Ano ba ang bagong taon? maingay, magastos, delikado. holiday, mausok, makalat, magulo.
Ano ba ang bagong taon?
Ito ay bagong buhay, bagong pag-asa, pagbabago.
Lumang katawan, pero bagong balat na may mas sensitibong pandama sa hinaharap. Pangarap na nalalasahan sa bawat pagpikit, paglunok, pagtibok at paghinga.
Lumang puso na pinatanda ng samut-saring karanasan at karahasan. Pero dinadaluyan ng sariwang dugong nag-aalab na muling sumubok at magpatawad.
Suot ko ang bagong damit na optimismo. Ito ang babalot sa lahat ng pangamba, laban sa masama. Ang tapang na saplot sa aking mga paa ang magbibigay lakas sa akin na laging makipagsapalaran.
Ano ba ang bagong taon?
Lumang binihisan ng bago? O bagong sangkap sa luma?
Bago ang lahat, ang bagong taon ay pasasalamat. Sa mga bagong kilala na ngayon ay masasabing luma at nagtagal na samahan. Sa mga blog posts na niluma na at natabunan na ng bagong mga posts, pero may bagong kahulugan at epekto pa rin sa ibat-ibang tao.
Salamat sa regalo nyong tiwala, kwento, pagmamahal at pakikipagkaibigan. Kayo ang nagpa-Happy sa New Year ko. =)
12.31.2011
12.28.2011
happy moment 1
i know i had a depressing post yesterday. so to make up for it, i decided to make happy moments count by sharing them here.
today, two friends from this blog visited me at work and gave me stuff. the funny thing is they sort of texted the same way.
Kim: Got time to go down from your olympus?
TwistedHalo: Maybe you could go down your tower and get Murakami?
Kim gave me the yummiest sandwich i ever tasted - pastrami with wasabi from Earle's. the wasabi and ripe tomatoes made all the difference. i think it's a trade-off because i had her taste the yummiest cheesecake ever. hehe.
TwistedHalo handed me a Haruki Murakami book of 24 short stories. :) This is my first Murakami book. I thought she's just going to lend it to me, but said i can have it. yey! :) let's see if murakami can beat jeffrey archer in short storytelling. =)
to you super sweet ladies, THANK YOU! =)
today, two friends from this blog visited me at work and gave me stuff. the funny thing is they sort of texted the same way.
Kim: Got time to go down from your olympus?
TwistedHalo: Maybe you could go down your tower and get Murakami?
Kim gave me the yummiest sandwich i ever tasted - pastrami with wasabi from Earle's. the wasabi and ripe tomatoes made all the difference. i think it's a trade-off because i had her taste the yummiest cheesecake ever. hehe.
TwistedHalo handed me a Haruki Murakami book of 24 short stories. :) This is my first Murakami book. I thought she's just going to lend it to me, but said i can have it. yey! :) let's see if murakami can beat jeffrey archer in short storytelling. =)
to you super sweet ladies, THANK YOU! =)
12.27.2011
December and backwards
Is it just me or did this year just sped by? If I look at my work planner, I sure did scribble a LOT of stuff and completed many projects. But if I look back at non-work stuff, not a lot seems to have happened with me. Part of this I think is because I forget things. Is my memory degrading or there's just isn't much worth remembering or I just want to forget many things? Sigh. Omg, did I just go with the flow and drowned in anonymity and insignificance?! Ugh. Am not liking this post. It's getting depressing with each sentence. Right now I just feel tired.
December is a month of self-abuse. A month of holidays and long vacations - to puyat all you want with gimmicks, catch up on missed DVDs, eat all you want, spend all you want (with the justification that you deserve it or a spirit of generosity). So I confess, am spent. Physically and financially. Back to work today, eye bags, backache, dry throat (pre-flu stage), all I can think of is I want a vacation. But wait, I just came back from vacation! I was also shocked to know that with all the gift giving I did, I failed to even buy myself new clothes. Yikes. Am not really a shopper, nor a bags-clothes-shoes kind of person. And I realized whatever new clothes I had this year, were gifts from people. *hint! Hint! Lol!*
I took out half of what's in my closet to donate for Sendong. But before I can do my good deed, my sisters rummaged thru them as if I'm a tindera from an ukay ukay store and took some of the clothes! Hmp. Now I seriously need to get a few clothes for work.
It's so ironic that three months ago, I told someone that I won't be giving any gifts this Christmas. And as I was complaining to her how exhausted and haggard I am with all the shopping I did, she reminded me of my no-gifts -this -year resolve, which I obviously forgot. It's a plan, but an insane one. Am not a man of steel who can resist the influence of the season. So do I have regrets? Know what? the joy is really in giving, be it the gift of purchased item, DIY stuff or the gift of time. =)
December is a month of self-abuse. A month of holidays and long vacations - to puyat all you want with gimmicks, catch up on missed DVDs, eat all you want, spend all you want (with the justification that you deserve it or a spirit of generosity). So I confess, am spent. Physically and financially. Back to work today, eye bags, backache, dry throat (pre-flu stage), all I can think of is I want a vacation. But wait, I just came back from vacation! I was also shocked to know that with all the gift giving I did, I failed to even buy myself new clothes. Yikes. Am not really a shopper, nor a bags-clothes-shoes kind of person. And I realized whatever new clothes I had this year, were gifts from people. *hint! Hint! Lol!*
I took out half of what's in my closet to donate for Sendong. But before I can do my good deed, my sisters rummaged thru them as if I'm a tindera from an ukay ukay store and took some of the clothes! Hmp. Now I seriously need to get a few clothes for work.
It's so ironic that three months ago, I told someone that I won't be giving any gifts this Christmas. And as I was complaining to her how exhausted and haggard I am with all the shopping I did, she reminded me of my no-gifts -this -year resolve, which I obviously forgot. It's a plan, but an insane one. Am not a man of steel who can resist the influence of the season. So do I have regrets? Know what? the joy is really in giving, be it the gift of purchased item, DIY stuff or the gift of time. =)
A moment with someone
Been bombarded with Adele songs from everywhere i go. Not that i hate her, it's just too much. Then after unknowingly learning the lyrics, I realised that this song, Someone Like You actually reminds me of someone.
It's been a while. Do you really forget someone? Parang I can't. I still remember them but the effect lessens as time passes. The true and tried healing power of time. thank God for that.
I used to think we're perfect for each other. Now it's all different or gone to be more apt. Maybe it's not the perfection or the compatibility that will sustain a relationship or a feeling. Maybe it's the willingness/patience to understand each other once the differences surface.
For me, the litmus test of love is time. It is so easy to get attracted, like, give in to temptation, get confused, think it's love or something serious. But they could just be moments. So I always give it the test of time. If it endures, then it's worth seriously considering. Film Blue Valentine said it best, "How do you trust your feelings when they just disappear like that?"
It's been a while. Do you really forget someone? Parang I can't. I still remember them but the effect lessens as time passes. The true and tried healing power of time. thank God for that.
I used to think we're perfect for each other. Now it's all different or gone to be more apt. Maybe it's not the perfection or the compatibility that will sustain a relationship or a feeling. Maybe it's the willingness/patience to understand each other once the differences surface.
For me, the litmus test of love is time. It is so easy to get attracted, like, give in to temptation, get confused, think it's love or something serious. But they could just be moments. So I always give it the test of time. If it endures, then it's worth seriously considering. Film Blue Valentine said it best, "How do you trust your feelings when they just disappear like that?"
Payo-payong bukid 3
Learn to be independent of other people's company. You need to toughen up woman!
Kung ayaw ka nila itext or kausapin, that sucks. But it's not the end of the world. Mahalin mo ang sarili mo. Alagaan mo sarili mo.
Go back to the things you enjoy and love so that you won't feel alone. :)
Kung ayaw ka nila itext or kausapin, that sucks. But it's not the end of the world. Mahalin mo ang sarili mo. Alagaan mo sarili mo.
Go back to the things you enjoy and love so that you won't feel alone. :)
The past days
Family reunions are NEVER simple. While I grew up with my parents and sisters, we are now different people with varying priorities and needs. Sure, the love is there, but so are nerves. For some reason, friction can't be avoided. And the shrieking kids who make mess that would make professional garbage handlers want to quit. There's also space invasion because since some live elsewhere but will stay for the holidays, we have to share rooms, some clothes, stuff, expense, practically everything. I love them, but I have to be honest, they drive me nuts, muttering spiteful words under my breath as I pick up one mess after the other. And by mess I don't mean just the stuff lying on the floor. So it's been a tiring, trying offline four days so far. I hate to say this, but am I glad I have work tomorrow. :)
12.22.2011
2 US Navy women share kiss in public for the first time
breaking my blog hiatus to share this very important must-post awesome news. =) whattamerrykissychristmas!
(AP) VIRGINIA BEACH, Virginia - A Navy tradition caught up with the repeal of the U.S. military's "don't ask, don't tell" rule on Wednesday when two women sailors became the first to share the coveted "first kiss" on the pier after one of them returned from 80 days at sea.
Petty Officer 2nd Class Marissa Gaeta of Placerville, California, descended from the USS Oak Hill amphibious landing ship and shared a quick kiss in the rain with her partner, Petty Officer 3rd Class Citlalic Snell of Los Angeles.
Gaeta, 23, wore her Navy dress uniform while Snell, 22, wore a black leather jacket, scarf and blue jeans. The crowd screamed and waved flags around them.
"It's something new, that's for sure," Gaeta told reporters after the kiss. "It's nice to be able to be myself. It's been a long time coming."
For the historical significance of the kiss, there was little to differentiate it from countless others when a Navy ship pulls into its home port following a deployment. Neither the Navy nor the couple tried to draw attention to what was happening and many onlookers waiting for their loved ones to come off the ship were busy talking among themselves.
David Bauer, the commanding officer of the USS Oak Hill, said that Gaeta and Snell's kiss would largely be a non-event and the crew's reaction upon learning who was selected to have the first kiss was positive.
"It's going to happen and the crew's going to enjoy it. We're going to move on and it won't overshadow the great things that this crew has accomplished over the past three months," Bauer said.
The ship returned to Joint Expeditionary Base Little Creek-Fort Story following an 80-day deployment to Central America. The crew of more than 300 participated in exercises involving the militaries of Honduras, Guatemala Colombia and Panama as part of Amphibious-Southern Partnership Station 2012.
Both women are Navy fire controlmen, who maintain and operate weapons systems on ships. They met at training school where they were roommates and have been dating for two years, which they said was difficult under "don't ask, don't tell."
"We did have to hide it a lot in the beginning," Snell said. "A lot of people were not always supportive of it in the beginning, but we can finally be honest about who we are in our relationship, so I'm happy."
Navy officials said it was the first time on record that a same-sex couple was chosen to kiss first upon a ship's return. Sailors and their loved ones bought $1 raffle tickets for the opportunity.
Gaeta said she bought $50 of tickets, a figure that she said pales in comparison to amounts that some other sailors and their loved ones had bought. The money was used to host a Christmas party for the children of sailors.
Snell said she believes their experience won't be the last one for gays and lesbians in the military.
"I think that it's something that is going to open a lot of doors, for not just our relationship, but all the other gay and lesbian relationships that are in the military now," she said.
Snell is based on the USS Bainbridge, the guided missile destroyer that helped rescue cargo captain Richard Phillips from Somali pirates in 2009.
source: here
interview:
Petty Officer 2nd Class Marissa Gaeta, left, kisses her girlfriend of two years, Petty Officer 3rd Class Citlalic Snell at Joint Expeditionary Base Little Creek in Virginia Beach, Va., Wednesday, Dec. 22, 2011 after Gaeta's ship returned from 80 days at sea. (Brian J. Clark,AP Photo/The Virginian-Pilot)
(AP) VIRGINIA BEACH, Virginia - A Navy tradition caught up with the repeal of the U.S. military's "don't ask, don't tell" rule on Wednesday when two women sailors became the first to share the coveted "first kiss" on the pier after one of them returned from 80 days at sea.
Petty Officer 2nd Class Marissa Gaeta of Placerville, California, descended from the USS Oak Hill amphibious landing ship and shared a quick kiss in the rain with her partner, Petty Officer 3rd Class Citlalic Snell of Los Angeles.
Gaeta, 23, wore her Navy dress uniform while Snell, 22, wore a black leather jacket, scarf and blue jeans. The crowd screamed and waved flags around them.
"It's something new, that's for sure," Gaeta told reporters after the kiss. "It's nice to be able to be myself. It's been a long time coming."
For the historical significance of the kiss, there was little to differentiate it from countless others when a Navy ship pulls into its home port following a deployment. Neither the Navy nor the couple tried to draw attention to what was happening and many onlookers waiting for their loved ones to come off the ship were busy talking among themselves.
David Bauer, the commanding officer of the USS Oak Hill, said that Gaeta and Snell's kiss would largely be a non-event and the crew's reaction upon learning who was selected to have the first kiss was positive.
"It's going to happen and the crew's going to enjoy it. We're going to move on and it won't overshadow the great things that this crew has accomplished over the past three months," Bauer said.
The ship returned to Joint Expeditionary Base Little Creek-Fort Story following an 80-day deployment to Central America. The crew of more than 300 participated in exercises involving the militaries of Honduras, Guatemala Colombia and Panama as part of Amphibious-Southern Partnership Station 2012.
Both women are Navy fire controlmen, who maintain and operate weapons systems on ships. They met at training school where they were roommates and have been dating for two years, which they said was difficult under "don't ask, don't tell."
"We did have to hide it a lot in the beginning," Snell said. "A lot of people were not always supportive of it in the beginning, but we can finally be honest about who we are in our relationship, so I'm happy."
Navy officials said it was the first time on record that a same-sex couple was chosen to kiss first upon a ship's return. Sailors and their loved ones bought $1 raffle tickets for the opportunity.
Gaeta said she bought $50 of tickets, a figure that she said pales in comparison to amounts that some other sailors and their loved ones had bought. The money was used to host a Christmas party for the children of sailors.
Snell said she believes their experience won't be the last one for gays and lesbians in the military.
"I think that it's something that is going to open a lot of doors, for not just our relationship, but all the other gay and lesbian relationships that are in the military now," she said.
Snell is based on the USS Bainbridge, the guided missile destroyer that helped rescue cargo captain Richard Phillips from Somali pirates in 2009.
source: here
interview:
12.14.2011
Aiza Seguerra, bow!
I am an all out fan of Aiza Seguerra. Foremost because of her talent as a singer and also because she's openly gay and still loved by people mainstream. For the first time, she joined a reality show in GMA7, "Protege" as a mentor of non-pro singer. Each mentors were made to search and choose their protege. She found hers in Cagayan de Oro by the name of Krizza Neri, 16 yrs old. For someone who's not into religion, I watched the show religiously. I may miss watching an episode of Amaya, Budoy or Survivor, but not this. And I am so proud to share that Aiza has been proven to be the BEST mentor in the show with how super good Krizza became as a singer. So at the first few elimination nights, i was baffled to my seat why Krizza got into the bottom 2, twice! seeing the unfairness in this and for fear that the text voters must be voice-blind/deaf, Eula Valdez, Bert de Leon (two of the judges) campagined for her because to eliminate her is just not right. they also chastised the people to vote based on talent. 70% of the score comes from the judges and 30% from test votes. I like it that the big chunk of the scoring is from the judge to not sway the scores based on popularity. after that outburst from the judges, Krizza started topping the ranks. whoopee! :) i couldnt be any happier. my world is round again and everything in its right place. Krizza and Aiza are now in the top 3 and finals will be this Sunday at Mall of Asia. Am still begging media friends from GMA7 to score some tickets to watch the finals show. hehe. Exceptionally proud ako at mayabang na the best sila Aiza and Krizza sa contest na to. Biased ba ko, pero feeling ko pag ang work ay from LGBT, ibang level ang honesty and quality ng work. hindi ko na pahahabain to at kanina pa naghahang ang laptop na to, walang pakisama tapos 1hr lang ang lunch break ko. hay.
Sharing to you the wonderful creation of mentor Aiza Seguerra in the person of Krizza Neri. =)
Narda
Mash up of If I Cound and Wind Beneath my Wings
Sharing to you the wonderful creation of mentor Aiza Seguerra in the person of Krizza Neri. =)
Narda
Mash up of If I Cound and Wind Beneath my Wings
Iduyan Mo
12.08.2011
hooray for hillary!:)
i love her then, i lover her more now. the impact of her doing this speech is monumental for me. the speech is kinda long, but am glad that it is. because each lgbt issue was discussed thoroughly so that people can better understand. after listening (and crying) to her speech, parang gusto ko na mag-out sa family ko. please watch/read the speech.
12.05.2011
ang kwento ng dalandan
i often ask myself to a point that i even asked god, why is it so hard? it makes me feel maybe that god has such high confidence in my ability to cope that s/he made my life so challenging (to be politically correct about it). but truth be told, i suffer a lot, inwardly. i just bounce back quick.
i am not tough by choice. i am tough because my survival depends on it. to be weak is an indulgence i can't afford yet. sometimes this toughness scares me because it borders indifference.i don't want to be unfeeling. i want to be involved in the affairs of people, i want to help, i want to share. i want to be less calculated. i want to take risks. i want to care. i want to love. i want to burst.
i've been hurt so many times, that i'm more careful now. i say that not as a good thing because i feel encaged by the lessons learned. i don't feel carefree anymore.
iDon't vs iWant
mahilig naman ako mag-isip so i sort of analyzed my misery. i mostly feel miserable because i don't get what i want. the things i wanted to achieve, acquire, be. you know those things you said you'll achieve at a certain point in your life but haven't yet. aggravated by the fact that based on fb updates, your friends/contemporaries have successfully achieved/gotten the things you aimed for for yourself. left out. left behind. that sucks putsa!
but i realized (just now), that that is linear thinking. plans change or there are sub-branches to those plans. and there are various dimensions to the things we want to achieve. like i may have not gotten to post-grad yet, but i do have an international certification in my field. i may have not have traveled overseas often yet, but i was able to explore the journey of the many women i've met here. i may not be financially rich yet, but man, i am so rich with experience and stories to share. on that alone, i can already burst. :) and who says i can't get the things i wanted? i still can. the question is, are those still the same things i want now? ahh, i love introspection. =)
i find it that it is so instant to feel dissatisfaction, to feel unhappy, to feel incomplete or lacking. why is that? why are we wired that way? bakit mahirap maging masaya at mas madaling malungkot? *e kasi tatlong daan tayong inoppress ng mga kastila. sisihin talaga ang kasaysayan e, hehe*
ako kasi i often compare myself to others which is mainly the source of my insecurity. having lived a life of deficiency, i've developed this inggit (for lack of a better term). but that is a self-defeating battle i can never win. EVER. which i realized too late. andami munang luha ang umagos, bumaha. at sangkatutak na suntok, bugbog sa sarili ang kadramahang naganap before i realized this. we ALL lead/live UNIQUE lives. you cannot compare an apple to a dalandan. they grow from different soil, with different genetic make up, with different season exposure, with different pests/parasites to fight against and different encounters. the differences are endless sa totoo lang. so it is indeed pointless and simply wrong to compare. i know, easier said than done. but am telling you now it's not worth kicking yourself over nor does anyone deserve the agony of belittling oneself.
there is always something to admire about ourselves, something to be thankful for, something to be proud of, something to love, something to be happy about. so smile, because i love your uniqueness.
to forgive is to be free. forgive yourself first. and then be involved in the affairs of people, help, share, be less calculated, take risks. care. love. and burst if you must. =)
i am not tough by choice. i am tough because my survival depends on it. to be weak is an indulgence i can't afford yet. sometimes this toughness scares me because it borders indifference.i don't want to be unfeeling. i want to be involved in the affairs of people, i want to help, i want to share. i want to be less calculated. i want to take risks. i want to care. i want to love. i want to burst.
i've been hurt so many times, that i'm more careful now. i say that not as a good thing because i feel encaged by the lessons learned. i don't feel carefree anymore.
iDon't vs iWant
mahilig naman ako mag-isip so i sort of analyzed my misery. i mostly feel miserable because i don't get what i want. the things i wanted to achieve, acquire, be. you know those things you said you'll achieve at a certain point in your life but haven't yet. aggravated by the fact that based on fb updates, your friends/contemporaries have successfully achieved/gotten the things you aimed for for yourself. left out. left behind. that sucks putsa!
but i realized (just now), that that is linear thinking. plans change or there are sub-branches to those plans. and there are various dimensions to the things we want to achieve. like i may have not gotten to post-grad yet, but i do have an international certification in my field. i may have not have traveled overseas often yet, but i was able to explore the journey of the many women i've met here. i may not be financially rich yet, but man, i am so rich with experience and stories to share. on that alone, i can already burst. :) and who says i can't get the things i wanted? i still can. the question is, are those still the same things i want now? ahh, i love introspection. =)
i find it that it is so instant to feel dissatisfaction, to feel unhappy, to feel incomplete or lacking. why is that? why are we wired that way? bakit mahirap maging masaya at mas madaling malungkot? *e kasi tatlong daan tayong inoppress ng mga kastila. sisihin talaga ang kasaysayan e, hehe*
ako kasi i often compare myself to others which is mainly the source of my insecurity. having lived a life of deficiency, i've developed this inggit (for lack of a better term). but that is a self-defeating battle i can never win. EVER. which i realized too late. andami munang luha ang umagos, bumaha. at sangkatutak na suntok, bugbog sa sarili ang kadramahang naganap before i realized this. we ALL lead/live UNIQUE lives. you cannot compare an apple to a dalandan. they grow from different soil, with different genetic make up, with different season exposure, with different pests/parasites to fight against and different encounters. the differences are endless sa totoo lang. so it is indeed pointless and simply wrong to compare. i know, easier said than done. but am telling you now it's not worth kicking yourself over nor does anyone deserve the agony of belittling oneself.
there is always something to admire about ourselves, something to be thankful for, something to be proud of, something to love, something to be happy about. so smile, because i love your uniqueness.
to forgive is to be free. forgive yourself first. and then be involved in the affairs of people, help, share, be less calculated, take risks. care. love. and burst if you must. =)
12.01.2011
proud moment
Kids are All Right-FOR REAL! gusto ko na rin mag-asawa! hahahaha.legit or not, i will continue to love the person, regardless of gender or label. i will love and no law can stop me from doing that. but would really be grand if the people who matter to me like family and friends will also share in that happiness.
thank you for all the Zachs in the world who show strength and pride for the sake of people like me who aren't as out there. i will march as my once a year public way of showing how happy and proud i am that i love women. =) cheers to us! :)
thank you for all the Zachs in the world who show strength and pride for the sake of people like me who aren't as out there. i will march as my once a year public way of showing how happy and proud i am that i love women. =) cheers to us! :)
2011 Pride March Reminders
I either wear mask or huge sun glasses. and i love dressing up based on theme. but for, Saturday, am on panic mode already. hehe. so many ideas, so little time. i wanted to wear a tiara, tutu skirt, statement shirt, wear colorful wig, leggings/tights with fancy design, necktie or bow tie. i also bought rainbow skin chalk for additional ek-ek.ektayted na ko! :) so far, six friends from this blog said they'll join me. am floored already with that. 'hope more will join.=)
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Dear LGBT groups/individuals and supporters,
We thank you for expressing your support for the 2011 LGBT Pride March.
To help you or your organizations gear up for the march, here is a check-list of reminders and things to do:
For Individuals who have registered on-line:
• Please
arrive early and approach the registration booth. Assembly time starts
at 1:00 p.m. (1300 hrs.) at Remedios Circle and the parade will start at
4:00pm
• Bring your fanciest costume or a mask in case you are not yet out.
• Do not bring, use or display firearms, explosive devices and other dangerous weapons.
• You will march together with the wonderful Task Force Pride Philippines team.
Other Matters:
• We discourage physical and verbal assault against our Anti-Gay Protestors.
• We remind the participants that the Pride March is a public event and there will be children who will be watching.
• The organizing committee shall be ensuring that there will be responsible media coverage during the event.
Map and Route of the Pride March
Attached with this email is the parade route.
1. Starting Point and Assembly Area will be at Remedios Circle
2. Remedios Street
3. Right to Roxas Blvd.
4. Right to Pedro Gil
5. Right to Jorge Bocobo
6. Back to Remedios Circle
6. Back to Remedios Circle
7. End Point will be Orosa-Nakpil Streets where the stage is located
Contact Information
If you have further queries feel free to contact Raffy Aquino, Co-coordinator for Membership and Participation at taskforcepride@gmail.com / 09163089903 (Globe), 09333049795 (Sun) or visit www.taskforcepride.blogspot.com
See you at the parade!
Yours truly,
Task Force Pride Philippines
FULL SET of REMINDERS, click HERE
last year's pride march
what is love?
this is.
this is.
and it's not just simple love, it's proud love!
join, support, cheer & be amazed at how wonderful the women are.
feel the love. feel the pride. =)
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