3.13.2011

L is for landslide

when you realize you're in love, and it's with your bestfriend, and she's a woman, and she's with someone else and you said "love me, please love me", and she didn't choose you. you've fallen, hard and deep. and she's not there to catch your fall. when you realize you're gay and there's no turning back really. landslide.  




landslide

i took my love and i took it down
i climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought me down

oh, mirror in the sky, what is love
can the child within my heart rise above
can i sail through the changing ocean tides
can i handle the seasons of my life

uh uh… uh uh, uh uh….

well, i’ve been afraid of changin’
cause i’ve built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older
and i’m getting older too
well

well, i’ve been afraid of changin’
cause i’ve built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older
and i’m getting older too

well, i’m getting older too

so.. take this love and take it down
yeah, and if you climb a mountain and you turn around
and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought it down

and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well maybe…
well maybe…
well maybe…
the landslide’ll bring you down

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"Landslide" is a song written by Stevie Nicks and performed by Fleetwood Mac. 
Cover versions were made by Dixie Chicks, Smashing  Pumpkins 
and now by no less than Glee's Gwyneth Paltrow, Brittany and Santana. 

***
saw this gLee episode earlier at ETC. one of the rare occasions that am able to watch tv. 
tonight is a rare and precious occasion.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

when you realize you're in love, and it's with your bestfriend, and she's a woman, and she's with someone else and..... she didn't choose you.

(if wer out and have the courage, would she take me instead...sad... hahaha)

-nana

Anonymous said...

i really hate to admit that this happened to me (falling for the bestfriend)... sucks big time!

i'm feeling emo lately.. after reading nana's post i wanted to cry..
-ally

Miko :) said...

Maybe if she didn't say "choose me" - or pressured her and just let the feelings sink in and give it time... Her friend would fall for her too. When you show your entire hand you miss the whole point in playing cards. Just my two cents! ;)

Jhamy whoops! said...

thats hard.. but sometimes we just have to accept that "some people are just made to be good friends"..

i already added you. keep safe! :)

firewomyn said...

@nana - we'll never know unless we shoot the question ;)

@ally - cry if you must. It's cathartic :)

@miko - I like the way you think. I agree. Love & not force. Giving the other time & space to understsnd the new dynamics. But we are human & can be insistent at times. Do share more tips :)

@jhammy - yeah. What's important I guess we gave it a shot :) thanks for the add! :)

borderlineunfriendly said...

Eh.

(Obviously, have nothing to say. But just wanted to give my two-letter's worth. Hehe.)

firewomyn said...

@borderlineunfriendly - hehe. And that's my four-letter reply to yours :)

Anonymous said...

firewomyn.blogspot.com reminded me that one time in my life i let myself be crazily in love with a girl... hahaha lintik! ang hirap mag move on! (getting there... sana) it was a roller coaster experience but thanks to your blog, it helped me get thru with it...

Ally!!! cry wd me!!! hahaha

-nana

Anonymous said...

funny how i've never been inlove with a best friend. bakit kaya?...twistedhalo

firewomyn said...

@nana, ally, & twistedhalo - omg! It just dawned on me based on the comments that I did fell inlove (sort of) with my guy bestfriend in college, & I had a bf then. Our closest friends learned of it and on my bday they gave me a cake with message that insinuates that. Bf then asked me after what the message was about. Turbulent times.

@nana & ally - Hey, join ako sa group crying nyo ha! :)

firewomyn said...

@twistedhalo - maybe you have clear lines between friends and romantic?

Anonymous said...

lez go and cry our heart out! hahaha

-nana

Anonymous said...

Either that or mga shonget mga friends ko.. Di ba? Hahaha...twistedhalo

Anonymous said...

napanood ko kanina yung episode!
hehe.. ang late ko ba? i don't watch glee or tv.. ang alam ko lang santana and britney do "things" together.. so i got really curious after reading this post.. i thought the writers of the show would just forever tease the viewers with the things happening between them and focus on kurt to address gay issues.. hmmm.. i might start watching glee from now on.. bitin ung episode!

santana made some good points and what stuck to me is the labels stuff.. ugh.. just thinking about it.. i'm having a debate in my mind right now.. and i salute her her for confessing.. she looked so true and sincere in that moment.. and that totally takes some guts to do.. RESPECT!

"Can you stop staring at me? I can't remember my locker combo."-santana :))

group crying.. ^_^
@nana- now im curious about your story..

unless its mutual, falling for a friend is a no no.. lesson learned!
-ally

Anonymous said...

ally!!! dont ask, baka pingutin mo tenga ko... but the experienced i had with her di ko pagpapalit... she taught me how to "love" naks! kung naririnig lang niya...nyeta! hahaha

but me, im curious sa mga love stories ni fw... hahaha =) i wanna hear it! hahaha

-nana

firewomyn said...

@nana & ally - hey, what happened t your group crying thingie? hehe. you can post a comment on your email addresses and i won't publish. then i'll just email you two para matuloy na ang grp crying/sharing na ito. hehe. :)