11.19.2004

tales from the closet 1



note: im a closet queen in my clan. my whole clan is homophobic.
they have this double standard, that it is okay to happen to other families, but totally unacceptable to our family. my struggle continues...

setting: sala of our house, me and my sister, while watching a tv ad.

sister:  ainako brent, bading ka!
me:      onga. di ba jowa nya si piolo?
sister:  yah, di ba, kaw may sabi sa min.
me:       bagay naman sila e. parehong gwapo.
sister:  daming ganyan ngayon e, dating lalaki, then later nagiging gay.
me:       oonga.
sister:  dami nga ko frends na ganyan.
me:       tingin ko naman, walang kaso yun, e sa nagkagustuhan sila.
sister:  oonga. malay mo, ikaw maging tibo ka din!
me:       *napatulala ng konti for a millisecond, then gave her da "duh" look*
sister:  YUCK!!!


hayy... just when i saw a glimpse of hope, that my sister is open to the idea,
she quickly returns to her old homophobic self.
had she not immediately followed it up with a disgustful "YUCK", i would have come out to her already.
i guess it's not yet time.
sadness...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

samen naman, yung lil sis ko e open minded. between the two of us siya pa nga yung galing sa exclusive sch e. ako sa co-ed. meron siyang barkada and 2 sa group na yun are lez and butch pa talga. pero kahit alam ko na open siya sa mga ganung tao, wala pa rin akong lakas ng loob para mag spill ng beans sa kanya. ako yung eldest and im still single, siya naman meron na family... haiz...-w1cked

firewomyn said...

@w1cked - okay lang yan. wala namang deadline ang pagcome out.:) you do it when you're ready. yung ibang sisters ko din married na kaya ako laging tinatanong kung kelan.at least you have a sister who won't be as shocked kasi hindi naman sya homophobic like my family. so cheer up! =)

kitkat said...

di ka nag iisa fire--homophobic din twin-sister ko as in super duffeerrr lahat sila hahaha-nice knowing you fire! you saved mine in a different way..you have no idea- and I love you for that!- yummybear