7.04.2011

a long and whine-ding road



I've always wanted to learn french even when I was a child. But mandarin is the business language and is strategic. I've been wanting to travel, but it's costly. I should save for my future first if I have some sense, so they say. I want to take MBA at AIM, but the tuition fee is astronomical. Should I just settle to local universities? Am dying to leave my parents' house. But living on my own will double my cost because I still have to support them.

They say live your dream. But how? When living in itself is a daily struggle of hit and miss. Pagod na pagod na ko sa obligasyon.

Gusto ko nang lumaya sa dikta ng kabutihan at kabaitan. Andaming itinuro sa 'tin mula pagkabata, karamihan kung pano magspelling at mabuhay ng tama at maging mabuti sa math at sa kapwa. Pinipilit kong alalahanin, kung may nagturo ba kung pano maging masaya. Wala akong maalala. Marahil ay wala kasing nakakaalam. Lahat naman siguro yun ang gusto pero parang sa iba tayo nagpapakadalubhasa (sa pera, sa trabaho, sa pag-aaral, etc). Hindi porke mabait ka at patas kang tao masaya ka na.

Count your blessings. Will it fill the void? Para mo na ring sinabi na ang gamot sa sakit ng tyan ay advil. hindi laging sagot ang happy pill sa harsh reality sa lupa. sometimes it takes a bitter pill para matauhan tayo. 

hay. I think I think too much.  Okay, okay, lemme rephrase. I think I whine too much. Hehe. Kung libre mangarap, mas lalong libre magreklamo! :p

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whine two three
**baka badtrip lang ako sa punyetang Pila Pilipinas na to. buong buhay ko parang puro pila na lang ang ginawa ko. sa enrollment, sa jeep, sa tren, sa airport immigration, sa cashier, sa tubig, sa motmot, sa grocery, sa atm, sa sinehan, pucha! pati sa popcorn pila! (libre kasi sa transformers 3d. hehe). nakakasawa na! #$%^&@ hindi sya nakakatuwa!** 

3 comments:

scout said...

pwede naman magtravel ng mura, basta nakaabang ka sa mga airfare sale. i booked palawan round trip tickets for 4 @ 2.5K. excited ako for my parents. :)

sa foreign travel naman, same din at basta may friend kang matutuluyan, minimal ang gastos mo. 10K all-in (or less) is not so bad.

Anonymous said...

i think you need an inspiration to deviate the whining into day dreaming.. yikessss! -w1cked

of course kilala mo ako said...

Get your MBA at UP Dil. I did that for two years before flying to the US and I enjoyed it. I have no experience with AIM or other business schools but I liked the UP campus and culture. Parang di ko yata makakayanan ang sobrang konyong mga classmate :) Dati mura lang sa UP, magkano na kaya ngayon?

I commend your sense of obligation to your family and your self-awareness in knowing that you also need to search for your own happiness. I don't have many family obligations (or strong family bonds...haha) but from watching my partner I know how exasperating it can feel to know that there is no end to what people "need" from you. Kung puwede sana humindi ano?

Good luck to you. Set aside a personal fund for your happiness exploits. Spend some time and resources on YOU, because if you don't take care of yourself first, you can't take care of anyone else. Like the oxygen masks on the plane nga naman....