Is it just me or did this year just sped by? If I look at my work planner, I sure did scribble a LOT of stuff and completed many projects. But if I look back at non-work stuff, not a lot seems to have happened with me. Part of this I think is because I forget things. Is my memory degrading or there's just isn't much worth remembering or I just want to forget many things? Sigh. Omg, did I just go with the flow and drowned in anonymity and insignificance?! Ugh. Am not liking this post. It's getting depressing with each sentence. Right now I just feel tired.
December is a month of self-abuse. A month of holidays and long vacations - to puyat all you want with gimmicks, catch up on missed DVDs, eat all you want, spend all you want (with the justification that you deserve it or a spirit of generosity). So I confess, am spent. Physically and financially. Back to work today, eye bags, backache, dry throat (pre-flu stage), all I can think of is I want a vacation. But wait, I just came back from vacation! I was also shocked to know that with all the gift giving I did, I failed to even buy myself new clothes. Yikes. Am not really a shopper, nor a bags-clothes-shoes kind of person. And I realized whatever new clothes I had this year, were gifts from people. *hint! Hint! Lol!*
I took out half of what's in my closet to donate for Sendong. But before I can do my good deed, my sisters rummaged thru them as if I'm a tindera from an ukay ukay store and took some of the clothes! Hmp. Now I seriously need to get a few clothes for work.
It's so ironic that three months ago, I told someone that I won't be giving any gifts this Christmas. And as I was complaining to her how exhausted and haggard I am with all the shopping I did, she reminded me of my no-gifts -this -year resolve, which I obviously forgot. It's a plan, but an insane one. Am not a man of steel who can resist the influence of the season. So do I have regrets? Know what? the joy is really in giving, be it the gift of purchased item, DIY stuff or the gift of time. =)